IT ALL STARTED WITH A SEED
If you are reading those lines, then it seems, that we have some important things in common. Like tiny footprints on the bedsheet, wonderful and funny family pictures on the wall, always cold cup of morning coffee or tea, full diaper on the couch, dog with small stickers in his fur, ongoing inner discussion about whether to start baby led weaning or find the old blender to make purees, my phone again lost in the playing corner, loaded in the new cargo van, and very likely- bad sleep the previous night due to baby teething. Sounds familiar? Oh, or probably you are expecting and waiting for your absolutely big day more than your graduation party or wedding day with excitement and a little fear. Or probably dreaming and planning your future family. No matter what situation you are in, I feel you and I know what you are going through, I have been there and I am still in it. I am like your pen friend who probably understands you more than you know.
I would like to introduce myself to you a little more. My name is Agnese, I am a housewife, a wife, and a mother of my children and well so much more. But my everyday world spins around my home, children, dog, cat, tiny garden, a couple flowers, piano a bit, dances a bit and, yes, I spend half of my day in kitchen and some large part of the rest in the toilet, because I have toddler twins. So it is inevitable, right? And helping tools are very welcome and needed in my life, and helping hands sometimes even more.
I wanted a dog
Well I met Karlis in my early twenties at my cousins party, and during the next couple of years we met a few times at my cousin’s, and one day he invited me to an innocent dinner. We somehow felt a huge mutual attraction and the situation was probably fuelled by my hunger after a long working day, so even the meal seemed so gorgeous to me as I remember, ha ha. And soon following next dates that summer made us clear that we want to be together. I was studying at that time and was applied to the Erasmus exchange program in Turkey. So I remember my 4 months in Turkey that following autumn and winter with less amazing trips and adventures that we had but more with everyday walking to an Internet cafe and spending two hours talking through Skype with Karlis. And he flew to me twice during that time. “Young love, always so melodramatic”, once said Toucan from the cartoon Rio.:) So I returned home and it was clear that I am coming home to nothing less than my future husband and so it all started with a seed- we began dreaming about our own little family tree. And also I wanted a dog and started looking for a Russian Toy, which seemed a perfect match for my lifestyle. But Karlis could not be happy about my choice because of the funny voice of this breed and I respected his dislike and stopped searching with simple grief. Little did I know that actually I was ready not to take care of tiny dog but to establish my own family, as I realized later.
Nobody is born a ready parent
And so we were not too. Our first son was born in August 2011, and since then my whole world is upside down. Being a mom for more than 10 years now, I can surely tell that nothing has changed me and us more than our children. I have stretched my physical, mental and emotional boundaries so many times that I can barely imagine how I lived before all those sweet and sometimes hard lessons, ha ha. And all I can say that this experience definitely has made me a better person when I finally realized that there are a lot of things that you can not control or predict but only accept and act through the situation with the best attitude possible. And taking care of my significant others taught me to take care of myself first. Well, to be honest, I am still learning this lesson that has cost me a lot during the years of parenting. I could write a long list with lessons that I have learned or still have to digest, but this is another story.
And right here we are
We have been married for 14 years now, living our desired countryside farmhouse life, we have 6 children, the two youngest of them are twin sisters, I have homeschooled my oldest kids, and the smallest are everyday by my side at home because I believe and see that they can learn the necessary skills from parents, siblings, nature, friends and everyday life around us together. And I still have a feeling that this is only the beginning of all the wonderful adventures life can offer us, we just have to imagine and put the seed into soil to start big things.
I bow to myself for everything I have been through and everything that I do from day to day to make the world spin for me and my family. And so I bow to you for your path, courage, aspirations, experiences and challenges you are facing. Because we all do. We are so different, but very likely at the same time, that is what makes us humans. And we all start with a seed, right? So I hope to hear about your hopes and dreams too,
Your pen friend Agnese
